After Christmas

from by January Zero



Do you know what it feels like
to go driving alone at night,
when there isn't any light for miles and miles?
And the lit up path in front of you
is the loneliest time you'll ever do,
and the only thing between you and snow-blind skies.

Just for awhile,

if it ever gets unbearable,
just pull onto the shoulder,
cut the lights off and sit there
for a minute and you'll find the darkness
doesn't mean to swallow you,
but is constantly opening out of you
on filaments connecting you
to dreamers, and further out, the stars.

Do you know what it feels like
to go walking round the town
just after Christmas when all the lights come down?
Does it feel like you've been dropped into
a starless pool of black and blue,
the moon gone missing, your feet can't find the ground,

they'll come around,

although the streetlights these nights
and their steely luminations
offer no relief from anything,
and they won't soak up the darkness
as it courses through the quiet city streets.

And I guess you know what it feels like
to be living through the telephone,
when the machine picks up it's back to being alone.
When you find the wide expanse of sky
too narrow for your racing mind,
and when the clouds set in you can't find your way back home,

or you're just not going.

I know that you said you were waiting for me,
that I must be on the way.
But when I finally came around
I heard the news and forgot what I wanted to say,

but I wanted to say

that when you finally turn a corner,
and a tiny farmhouse window
is lit up with a candle,
or a Christmas decoration
comes speaking through the evening,
and you're finally receiving,
like Stevens looking out across the bay,
a light to hold in place
the curtain of black and blue,
that's what it feels like to see you.


from The Long Radio Silence, released March 9, 2014



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January Zero is an indie folk rock outfit based in Appomattox, VA.

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